Last night I had a sex dream. It was about one of my male exes. One of the ones I'm intending on catching up with, in fact.
He mounted me in my bed, and there was a lot of fiery kissing and hair grabbing and thrusting. I love the feeling of a big, hard cock pushing against my body.
I miss having another body against my own. And I miss kissing. The recent ex and I stopped kissing a long while before we broke up.
It's different dating at 21 than in the early teens. When you're a young virgin, kissing and touching is exciting. Every little step feels big, and you don't need to get naked to feel satisfied.
I haven't been single and 21 before. Now that sex is on the table, I'm excited but I also don't quite know how to deal with this.
I feel the need to be torn apart and fucked like nobody cares. But at the same time, I am afraid that sex might make me realise how much less intimate it's going to be with someone who is not my partner.
Sometimes I cum in my sleep. I wake up mid-orgasm, and I'm not even touching myself. I wish I could do this whilst I were awake. I find it hard to come with someone's tongue between my thighs, and then I go to sleep and cilmax into oblivion!
Maybe I should start having sex in my sleep?
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