It has been too long.

I apologise for the gap in between posts! I have a lot to say but I probably won't remember the most of it. I will try though.

I've still been sleeping with my friend. I had been starting to be concerned that he can't really fuck me, so I started talking to him online and telling him I want to be fucked like I'm being punished, working him up to spank me and pull my hair and hold my hair and use my mouth to fuck his cock.

And it worked. He picked me up from a friend's house, we'd been smoking so I was reasonably high. And we didn't just have great sex- we had great car sex!! It was so brutal and urgent that my underwear was on the entire time. He used my bra to hold on to me like reins on a horse. My underwear was pulled to the side so violently it was pulling on my ass. He pulled my hair and scratched my back and fucked me while I told him how much I wanted him to cum inside me.

But he didn't cum inside me- I finished him off with my mouth, and he came so much and so hard, it just got me even wetter. I've never seen so much cum in my life, it was all over his cock and my hands and chest and mouth.

The other night I briefly met one of the guys I've been talking to from the dating site. We have incredible chemistry online and on the phone, but as soon as I met him I just got the feeling that he's gay, and I didn't feel a connection. I'm not sure if he'll want to see me again but I'm kind of hoping he doesn't ask so that I don't have to make excuses...

What else.... One of my exes has been contacting me a lot... I don't think we should get involved with each other again though, we're both in very vulnerable states right now, and I don't think we'll do each other any good. Also I couldn't commit to a relationship with him, or anyone right now. I'm not sure if I'm going to have to have a "talk" with him about everything, but I feel that it might be coming...

The other thing that's reasonably significant, is that yesterday I decided to try selling my worn underwear online! I figure it's a harmless way to help satisfy peoples' cravings, whilst making some much needed money... I don't think it harms my integrity, it's anonymous, and in all honesty it's a bit of a turn on to know that people can enjoy them. I love my own smell, so I like the idea of somebody making themselves cum with my panties on their face.

Surely I had more things to write about, but it's the end of semester so I have been so snowed under with uni that I can't really remember much more...

OH YES!! Go have a look back at my "Up late playing Shot, Fuck, Marry" post from June this year- I spoke to Person 5 online the other day. He's still overseas, but we got talking about sex and threesomes and fantasies, and it just got to a certain point where I told him I didn't know what else to talk to him about without it turning into cybersex. There was a pause, and he said "fuck it, are you wet?".

This was incredibly fucking exciting for me, because I have wanted this guy FOR YEARS, and there has always been this incredible, unspoken sexual tension. We started talking dirty to each other, but then his roommate walked in and he had to go.

I haven't heard from him since, which is kind of disappointing, but he tends to disappear for a while and then reemerge. I do really hope that we fuck one day. I've never wanted anyone so badly in my life.

I think that is it right now.

Although I don't feel I'm much closer to my goal of sex with a woman, or a threesome! Once semester is over I should be able to go out more and meet more people. Wanted to go gay clubbing tonight but I'm sick so I'm just home on the couch.

I'm incredibly horny though, so I might have to move to bed soon and fuck myself silly.
I've been considering trying to teach myself to squirt, but I don't even think I like the idea of it. I'm not sure...

I do know that the idea of eating a girl out gets me really wet, and I also want to have a girl go down on me.

And I'm trying to get the friend I've been sleeping with to organise a threesome. Hopefully he knows someone he can call on to join the fun.