I kissed a girl.

Well, Thursday was a great night.

I was sick, so I slept all day, then got up and went to the city at 6:00 to meet the girl from the dating site. She was lovely, and we spoke heaps, but it was more of a "friend" thing, and I didn't feel an attraction to her.

After meeting with her, I went to a friend's house to start drinking for the night out at the gay club. We had some good talks, and it was great seeing him because I hadn't seen him in a long time.

We headed out to the club at around 11:00. It was a great night. There were lots of people I knew there, and I had lots of great random conversations with people. I always make quite a few friends when I'm out gay clubbing. I love dancing with randoms.

I'm not flowing very well right now, because I'm tired and still sick.

I was dancing like crazy at the club, and saw this girl looking at me. She was OK looking, but not someone I'd normally approach. Anyway, she had a lip ring and big boobs, win and win, so I gave her the eyes back, and kept dancing. She looked at me a few times and I looked back, and eventually she just reached over, grabbed my arm and pulled me over to her.

I danced with her, and we ended up making out for a while. It was great fun, I haven't made out with a girl in a long while, and I'd forgotten how much I do in fact enjoy it. It's such a different feeling, kissing a girl. We're so much softer than boys... I definitely need to hook up with girls more often.

I need to sleep with a woman.

I'd been texting the friend I've been sleeping with all night, and I told him I made out with a girl, and that it had made me even hornier. I ended up back at his place, at around 4:30am. We lay in bed and put on some lesbian porn, and fucked while it played. I've always wanted to have sex while watching porn. The ex and I were going to do that, but never did.

Just writing this makes me want to fuck again. But I can't booty call him every night... And he is sleeping with a fair few people, so I don't want to seem too reliant on him.

I really like the arrangement with him- we watched porn, fucked, then watched South Park and talked about other people we're fucking or wanting to fuck. It's very clear that we're just fuck buddies, which is so rare for it to actually work. It's great because we obviously care about each other, but not as anything more than friends.

He drove me home at 7:00am, and I slept most of Friday, too.

Then one of my friends came and picked me up on Friday night, and we went to an art exhibition, then a 21st. I didn't know anyone at the party, I went as my friend's +1. Luckily he didn't want to have a big night, and we were home by around 10:00. He came in to see my parents, and I was just so tired that he ended up tucking me in at 10:30, which was so sweet. I fell pretty much straight asleep.

Today I worked all day, and I'm at home now getting ready for another early night. Tomorrow I've been called in to work, so I won't be meeting the other online dating guy, but I asked him if we could reschedule to next week.

I had a few texts from the guy I went out with on Tuesday night. I've had a funny feeling about him since even before the date, and he just seemed way to keen. His texts just seemed far too much as well, and I decided to call it off before it got any further. I didn't want to hurt him, and it just seemed as though he wanted something far more serious than I did. I wasn't all that attracted to him either, and I kind of felt manipulated into agreeing to a second date in the first place.

I told him we shouldn't see each other again because I'm still hung up on my ex, which is not a complete lie. But I just didn't see it going anywhere good, I think better sooner rather than later with this guy, because I really couldn't imagine feeling any better about it, seeing as I felt uncomfortable about it from the start.

I miss my ex, but I've been feeling a lot stronger about it since writing that letter.
Need to find some more pussy though.

Oh also I texted the guy I met last Sunday, but he hasn't replied. Oh well, you can't win them all!