Gaining a new perspective.

I've been so busy! Working and going out and organising things for uni. It's been good, though. I'm going out tonight with a friend to watch her ex-girlfriend play in what she describes as "an angry lesbian rock band". I'm not quite sure whether it's a rock band of angry lesbians, or a band of angry "lesbian rock". Either way, I'm getting out of the house again and I don't have to work this weekend!!! =D It's my first weekend off in so long I don't even know when my last one was!!! I think at least six months!!

I'm really happy about the fact that I've been hanging out with my old high school group again. They make me laugh and I'm relaxed around them, it's great. I haven't had a big group of friends in a while. I'm going to continue to make a concerted effort to see them all regularly.

I find I'm a much more relaxed and open person than I used to be, in a lot of ways. I'm very open about sex and sexuality with my friends, and I find it refreshing to be able to speak about anything and everything with such an accepting group of people. I got a text last night from a good friend saying that he really loves my "new lease on life", which was lovely. I feel a lot more liberated than I used to.

And I'm starting to see that maybe this whole break-up thing will turn out all right for me. I feel that I'm growing as a person, and I'm going to continue to work to fullfil my fantasies and get to know new people. I'm learning. And I'm liking myself more and more. I have a great group of friends to thank for that.

So this Saturday is my friend's party, and I see my kiss from the other night. Part of me just wants to go for it and see what happens. The other part of me is a little shy and scared, because I've known him so long and he's in the group. I'm going to try not to overthink it though, and just play it by ear.

Like I said last time though, I am pretty turned on by the idea of being the "experienced" one in this situation.. Hmmm....

Anyway, I'm looking forward to this weekend.

And I'm kind of hoping that I'll have next weekend off as well, because that's threesome weekend! I'm actually getting pretty excited about that... The girl has been keeping in regular contact with me. I hope that the three of us connect. We'll see, again I think I should go in with little expectations, and hope for the best. I feel the timing is pretty good. Making out with my friend the other night made me feel good, and I'm feeling emotionally stable enough to actually start acting out a lot of the things on my single list. =]

I guess that's about it for now... Just thinking about all that got me pretty excited about things, and oh so slightly horny.....