Something to blog about.

I'm a little euphoric today.

Yesterday was a shitty day. I was missing the ex, I was stressed, I was horny, nothing was fulfilling me at all.

I went out anyway because a friend was here from interstate for a family thing. So I went with her to see her, but left pretty early because I was in a pretty foul mood and wanted to get some sleep so that I could get a start on my essay today. I decided, however, to pop in to a bar on the way home where my friends all were. It was a night were a few of my friends who are in bands were performing. I was only going to pop in and say hi, but when I got there one band that a few of my friends are in was about to start playing. I hadn't heard them play before, so I decided I might as well stay and listen.

They were amazing, and I was put in a better mood hanging around everyone, and started to perk up.

One of my friends was the guitarist in the band, and he was so fucking incredible I watched him most of the time, not the lead singer.

I've always had a bit of a crush on him. Anyway, he was my ride home, because he lives just up the street from me. But instead of leaving at 1:00 when they finished playing, we actually got caught up chatting at the bar for a while. A couple of my friends joined us, and we all ended up speaking about sex. This friend has the same attitude about it as I do- free and open about everything. I noticed his body language while we were talking seemed a bit flirtatious, but I wasn't too sure what to think of it, because I've known him a long time and he's always been very friendly.

Anyway, we finally got into the car at around 3:00am, and before he even started driving he just said to me "look, I'm going to be honest, I kind of really just want to kiss you". I had been thinking exactly the same thing, and the chemistry was just incredible. We sat out the front of the bar just kissing for a while- his hand entwined in my hair, the other around my waist. It was great, instant chemistry.

So then he drove me home, and we just chatted the whole way. We got out the front of my place, and started kissing again. We just kissed for a long time. It was passionate, and it was hot. It was really nice to just kiss again, haven't focused on kissing in a long time.

Eventually I said "I think you should come inside", and he said he agreed. But then we just kept making out in the car. We just couldn't tear ourselves off each other. It was really exciting.

Eventually we made it to my room. And it was one of the best experiences I have ever had.

He was incredible.

He took his time with me- there was almost an hour of foreplay. I didn't feel at all any pressure to do anything- he focused on me most of the time, and I didn't feel that I had to reciprocate. Of course I did, and I went down on him for a long time and really enjoyed it. But I've never felt so relaxed with anyone on the first night- he completely just wanted me to breathe and enjoy the touch of his hands and tongue. I could tell that he was getting off on turning me on, and there was no need for me to do anything except enjoy.

It was so great to have a friend that I could connect with, take his time for us to share and appreciate each others' bodies, with no pressure and no stress or expectations.

When we eventually had sex, it was incredible. He'd teased me to the point where I couldn't take it any longer before touching me, and he'd waited until I couldn't take it for us to actually have sex.

It was just one of the best sexual experiences I have ever had- we connected, we were relaxed, we fucked passionately, there was spanking and hair pulling and kissing and biting and scratching and licking and moaning and talking dirty and laughing and everything good that should be a part of sex.

He's also a big cuddler- so we fell asleep in each other's arms, which was really lovely. The sex I've been having lately has just been wild fucking followed by a hug goodbye. This was so much better.

It's not going to turn into anything more- he doesn't want a relationship and there's no way that I can get into a relationship at this point in my life either. But I really hope that we can do it again. I'm not sure if we will, because I know he is pursuing a girl at the moment, and even though he doesn't want a relationship, he seems to really like her.

But he's really left me wanting more.

I was really happy as well that he felt comfortable enough to hang around in the morning, he didn't leave until after midday.

So basically, fellas- if you get off on getting us off, we will crave more.

It has been too long.

I apologise for the gap in between posts! I have a lot to say but I probably won't remember the most of it. I will try though.

I've still been sleeping with my friend. I had been starting to be concerned that he can't really fuck me, so I started talking to him online and telling him I want to be fucked like I'm being punished, working him up to spank me and pull my hair and hold my hair and use my mouth to fuck his cock.

And it worked. He picked me up from a friend's house, we'd been smoking so I was reasonably high. And we didn't just have great sex- we had great car sex!! It was so brutal and urgent that my underwear was on the entire time. He used my bra to hold on to me like reins on a horse. My underwear was pulled to the side so violently it was pulling on my ass. He pulled my hair and scratched my back and fucked me while I told him how much I wanted him to cum inside me.

But he didn't cum inside me- I finished him off with my mouth, and he came so much and so hard, it just got me even wetter. I've never seen so much cum in my life, it was all over his cock and my hands and chest and mouth.

The other night I briefly met one of the guys I've been talking to from the dating site. We have incredible chemistry online and on the phone, but as soon as I met him I just got the feeling that he's gay, and I didn't feel a connection. I'm not sure if he'll want to see me again but I'm kind of hoping he doesn't ask so that I don't have to make excuses...

What else.... One of my exes has been contacting me a lot... I don't think we should get involved with each other again though, we're both in very vulnerable states right now, and I don't think we'll do each other any good. Also I couldn't commit to a relationship with him, or anyone right now. I'm not sure if I'm going to have to have a "talk" with him about everything, but I feel that it might be coming...

The other thing that's reasonably significant, is that yesterday I decided to try selling my worn underwear online! I figure it's a harmless way to help satisfy peoples' cravings, whilst making some much needed money... I don't think it harms my integrity, it's anonymous, and in all honesty it's a bit of a turn on to know that people can enjoy them. I love my own smell, so I like the idea of somebody making themselves cum with my panties on their face.

Surely I had more things to write about, but it's the end of semester so I have been so snowed under with uni that I can't really remember much more...

OH YES!! Go have a look back at my "Up late playing Shot, Fuck, Marry" post from June this year- I spoke to Person 5 online the other day. He's still overseas, but we got talking about sex and threesomes and fantasies, and it just got to a certain point where I told him I didn't know what else to talk to him about without it turning into cybersex. There was a pause, and he said "fuck it, are you wet?".

This was incredibly fucking exciting for me, because I have wanted this guy FOR YEARS, and there has always been this incredible, unspoken sexual tension. We started talking dirty to each other, but then his roommate walked in and he had to go.

I haven't heard from him since, which is kind of disappointing, but he tends to disappear for a while and then reemerge. I do really hope that we fuck one day. I've never wanted anyone so badly in my life.

I think that is it right now.

Although I don't feel I'm much closer to my goal of sex with a woman, or a threesome! Once semester is over I should be able to go out more and meet more people. Wanted to go gay clubbing tonight but I'm sick so I'm just home on the couch.

I'm incredibly horny though, so I might have to move to bed soon and fuck myself silly.
I've been considering trying to teach myself to squirt, but I don't even think I like the idea of it. I'm not sure...

I do know that the idea of eating a girl out gets me really wet, and I also want to have a girl go down on me.

And I'm trying to get the friend I've been sleeping with to organise a threesome. Hopefully he knows someone he can call on to join the fun.