Updating the bucket list.

So I've managed to cross off webcam sex off my Single Bucket List, and I also have a new addition.

I decided that webcam sex might be a good way to relax me and help me get to a point where I can allow someone else to bring me to orgasm eventually. So I asked a friend who lives overseas if he'd watch me. It was a lot of fun, and totally exhilarating. Very nerve-wracking, but he and I have always had a strong chemical connection, and have been exchanging photos and dirty talk for almost a year now.

Unfortunately the internet connection cut out, so I didn't orgasm while he watched, but I kept going and recorded it for him, and came while recording myself, which I've never been relaxed enough to do before, so I figure it was a step in the right direction. :)

With that one crossed off, another ambition takes its place.

Tonight was the warmest night we've had in a long time here, bearing in mind it's still winter. I went for a long walk by the riverside in the city, and as my mind wandered I decided I want to make myself cum in public.

So I'm adding this to my list.

On a warm night, I'm going to wear a skirt, walk down to the riverside, take off my underwear, cover my legs with a jacket just in case anyone walks by too closely, and fuck myself with my vibrator until I cum.

I'm actually getting really wet just thinking about it, I can't wait until the weather is warmer! Someone asked me the other night where the most interesting place I've had sex is, and other than the back room of my old workplace I couldn't really think of anywhere. So that got me thinking that I'd like to be more adventurous with the places I have sex, the idea of being semi-public really turns me on. And since I don't have a regular sexual partner at the moment, I figure I might as well get the ball rolling by myself!
I think it's a brave and exciting thing to do, and totally fucking hot.

So this brings the current items on my list to:

-Have sex with a woman

-Have a threesome

-Work on becoming relaxed enough to allow others to bring me to orgasm

-Work on being content being by myself and not feeling the need to be in a couple

-Videotape myself having sex

-Make myself cum outdoors in the city

Lastly, I just wanted to tell a story of a guy I slept with about three years ago, just before I met my ex. I was reminiscing before.

I used to take one-on-one singing lessons. I was quite good if I may say so, in fact my singing teacher was always using me as an example to other students.

There was a boy whose class always overlapped with mine. Our teacher would always call me into the room when he had a few minutes left to go, in order to ask me to give him some demonstrations of how I did things.

I was always incredibly attracted to him- he had a cool demeanour, an air of nonchalance that was incredibly alluring. His blonde hair was casually swept across his face.

Turns out he had done quite a lot of work in a popular New Zealand TV show, which increased the appeal, too. Anyway, I'd only ever see him oh-so-briefly in class, and I never thought he looked at me twice.

Then one night, after I got back from three months travelling overseas, I was out drunk at a club, and stumbled into him. He picked me up in his arms and spun me around, drunk as I was, maybe more. He admitted he'd always had a crush on me, and I couldn't believe my luck. We kissed like there was no tomorrow that night, and then I went home with my friends.

I ended up going on a date with him a week or so later. We went to a rooftop bar, and talked and laughed and got tipsy, and I went back to his place. He lived on the twenty-somethingth floor of an apartment in the city. He had a great big window where a wall should be, looking down onto a glistening nighttime Melbourne.

We had great sex, twice, and he left for Europe not long after.

I hope I can find someone fun and wild with whom to have some crazy, uninhibited times very soon.

I want to explore someone's body and personality, take risks and try new things.